A BLAST FROM THE PAST

I GOT A SURPRISED CALL THIS WEEKEND FROM ONE OF MY EX-LOVER… I HAVEN’T SEEN HIM IN 35 YEARS… YES??? , HE WAS ONE OF MY VERY FIRST LOVE… AT THE TIME OF KNOWING HIM… I WAS SO VERY PLEASED AND GLAD TO HAVE MEET A GUY LIKE HIM… HE WAS THERE AS SECURITY FOR THE USA EMBASSY; A US MARINE.. HE WITH HIS FELLOW MARINES WAS STATION ABOVE MY HOUSE AND HAD TO PASS BY EVERY DAY…

He was jogging one day.. and saw me.. he smiled and say hi… I returned his smile and responded with a “hi.. I remember smiling so pleasingly liking his acknowledgment.. and wish I had the courage to say more.

I got my chance a few days after…he was driving past towards his place with some of his buddies… he saw me… and stopped… call me over and ask me my name and invited me to his place… I was so thrilled to see him again.. his name was Paul… I  didn’t accept his invitation that day but he asked if he could see me again and I eagerly said, ‘yes’…

He did come by to see me.. invited me out and so started a whirlwind love affair… we were inseparable… and I was so enthuse to have him liking me and becoming my boyfriend.. My family all joined me in liking him we all agreed that he was a really nice guy… I was very happy with him and I was so delighted to spend as much time as he could muster…

I was very shy, quite reserved,  a little withdrawn.. I didn’t feel quite comfortable with his friends a little out-of-place… but.. he always makes me feel at ease with all the attention and affection he showed me… we went on like this for about six months…

I started a business school… he used to take me every morning and drop me off… I was in heaven.. and totally in love by now…so after a week or two into school I was approached by this Chinese girl asking if I was Wendy… and letting me know she wants to be friends… of course I agreed… she would seek me out and talk to me daily and we talked about things like my boyfriend… of course ,I proudly tell her of paul and just how much I love him and just how wonderful he is…

So.. she invited me to the movies one evening and I accepted…I remembered it was a james bond movie… “for your eyes only”… we got in… and as we settled down to watch the movie… she told me… “you know we have the same boyfriend… Paul is my boyfriend too..”… I did not know what to say… the tears was welding up in my eyes, my throat was tighten with wanting to cry out.. I gasp.. and I got up to leave.. I just had to go… I couldn’t talk… I didn’t know what to say… she was talking , but i didn’t hear a thing she was saying.. my head was spinning… my heart was breaking… I was mad.. I was so jealous… I look at her… how could I compete with her… I have so many questions… and I knew all the answers… I knew it was over for me…

We walked all the way to her house… It was a long walk and I calm down a little although still numb… and she was very consoling and have a way of making me feel better.. I was not hysterical any more…

she called him at work… tell him she told me about them and he asked me to wait on him to come by after work… he came.. I didn’t have much to say… I really didn’t know what to say… he took me home and on the way home I ask him, “so what’s it gonna be”… he stated that he didn’t know and so I just accepted my fate and walk away…

I saw him a couple of weeks after.. jogging down the hill.. I was coming home.. and he stopped and we talked some and after we finished talking he turned back home… that would have been the last time I saw him… I still remain friends with that girl…(to this day).

They actually end up getting married and move back to the states… I cried… for a lost love that I thought should have been mine…  I so much wanted to be his wife… but he had made his choice and it was so obvious that he had loved her more… and so I had accepted it all and move on…

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Now 35 years had passed… and out of the blues she is calling me telling me that Paul wants to say Hi to me…and no lie.. I was delighted to hear from him… and on his way home that evening he stopped by… I was so happy that he chose to…and when I saw him… I couldn’t recognized him as the guy I knew all those years ago… he was completely different… so was I … after all we are talking about 35 years of changes.. I was still thrill to see him as is.. trying so hard to find some resemblance to the guy I knew … and he started to tell me of his vision he held of me all those years ago… how he saw me back then… how smitten he was and how dazzled  he was by my beauty.

I sat there listening to him describing me… he says I was his fantasy girl… like out of a magazine…he was in awe of me.. he thought I was way out of his league.. I was so amazing and every time he was with me he couldn’t believe his luck… he couldn’t get enough of me.. he described my body like it was so perfect… he told me he had visualize me over the years…but his choice was due to the fact that he thought I would have left him… how ironic… he married that other girl…because he thought she would never leave him…. and she did….

What might have been is far too late to think about.. and we didn’t really have any emotional feelings left over for each other…

sure I think about you every now and then….but… it’s been a long long time…I have got a good life now but I have move on…so when you cross my mind.. I try not to think about  what might of been…that was then…and we have taken different roads…we can’t go back again….there is no use giving in and there is no way to know what might have been…

WE c0uld sit and talk about this all night long..wonder why we didn’t last…yesterday might be the best days we will ever know… but, we will have to leave them in the past… so try not to think about what might have been…because that was then…and we have taken different roads…we can’t go back again…there is no use giving in   and there is no way to know what might have been.

the same old look in your eyes…it’s a beautiful sight..sooo tempted to stay…but too much time has gone by…we should just say goodbye and turn and walk away…and try not to think about what might have been..

               (SONG BY LITTLE TEXAS)

ALL IN ALL… IT WAS A PERFECT REUNION OF A LOVE THAT WAS LOST… I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT HE SPENT WITH ME… AND WE REMINISCENCE AND WE TRY TO RELIVE THE TIMES WE HAD SHARED ALL THOSE YEARS AGO…. HE REMEMBERS THINGS THAT IS NOW A BLUR TO ME..AND i AM SO GRATEFUL FOR HAVING ONE MORE TIME WITH HIM.. IT’S LIKE A CLOSURE… AND A COMPLETE THRILL TO HAVE THAT BLAST FROM THE PAST…

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87 thoughts on “A BLAST FROM THE PAST

  1. Beautiful post. It’s really such a blast meeting someone again from your past. Suddenly i remember that Joey Albert song, “I remember the boy but i don’t remember the feelings anymore.”

    Thanks for sharing your story. :

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  2. Wonderful post! I really enjoyed reading it. It’s hard to forget someone from the past when that person has been the one you ever wanted in your future…

    ” While walking today as I normally do
    I turned around and your face came into view.

    My heart beating fast just took my breath away
    totally speechless with nothing to say.

    I remembered things that were spoken the day we said goodbye
    and how bad I felt when I saw you cry.

    Just then someone took you by the hand
    it seemed that you were happy and life has treated you grand.

    So with one more glance at your beautiful face
    I knew that someone else had taken my place.”

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