The first week of January …. It was cold and I have noticed that he didn’t have a warm jacket so I brought him a one to wear outside. He accepts and said thanks.. and he walks over to my cash register to express his gratitude.. I have this silly on my face.. just so pleased to have him close and being attentive to me..
Then.. he left and went to talk to one of my co-worker.. she was one of my bestie at the job; we started together.. and she was young , in her twenties..
I noticed his demeanor and saw his smile.. and saw her reaction… and I felt my green monster surfacing.. and i was raging inside and getting all emotional..
It was as if my whole world came crashing down on me. He was flirting with my little friend veronica. OH BOY! I was so jealous & crushed.
. Then she walked over to me and told me she didn’t like me coming on to her guy. I smile and asked her if he is flirting with her and if he liked her …and wanted to know if she likes him in return. She said yes.
I was so hurt and I tried really hard not to show my feelings but I was dying with jealousy on the inside..
I was so devastated but this is what I did….. I encourage her to be with him. Don’t know why I wanted to do that because I was dying inside. I guess I liked her and I liked him and I just thought they are age appropriate….
He spent all day with her.. even went to lunch together… i was acting and feeling rejected as if we had a relationship going…. It was here that I realize just how strong my emotions has gotten.. My heart was breaking and my hopes of experiencing this marvelous species of a man was lost…
I thought he likes me; I want him to like me. I could not function or focus. I was too distracted with them.. I cried, yes cried because I thought that’s the end of my story. Well my day was ruin I couldn’t wait to leave and everywhere veronica went so did he and so did my eyes.
When I was leaving ,I seek him out… and I found him… He was talking to her… I went over to them ask him if I could see him. He came to me and I spill my guts. I told him just how much I like him and how I wanted him and how I have made love to him a thousand times in my mind.
Well he just casually blew me off tells me it was all for fun and that he does not like me like that. Of course my heart sank and I was so upset. I came home in tears and I decided to text him exactly how I feel. I pour my heart out saying things that was not even appropriate, but I thought it didn’t matter because it was over. He now has veronica.
So he text me back telling me that he didn’t know that I felt like that and he’s sorry if he hurt me but he was for real and still is…Still is?? I didn’t really expect that answer..
I thought I would leave things as is.. .. It was the beginning of a very emotional roll-a-coaster for me. So I kind of gave up on him but try to remain his friend.
I would still text him and seek him out especially after my shift to talk to him, inquiring about his relationship with veronie. acting all interested … but still a bit jealous…
I would also ask her about them too… I would try to advise her and encourage her to like him. And at the same time feel like a hypocrite because here I am still wants him still feel for him and with my heart breaking I’m playing nice.I do like her and I thought he was the best.
..He would still talk about us getting together and I wanted to …so tempted…but every time I see him with vernie I felt unsure.
There was a little episode involving him and this other girl at the store…( every girl want a piece of his sexy ass). She got jealous of him and vernie and started a rumor about him and her. So I said ‘oh shit, I don’t need this drama.’ But he started to seek me out to talk to me…showing interest in me.. starting again to flirt with me… and of course I love this attention and when he again start to imply us getting together I was more than willing.
he called me.. we talked about us and what’s been happening between us..and our desire to get involved… I now realize he has been thinking about me sexually….So I agreed to enter a relationship with him…. eagerly..
We both agree it would be casual for long as he was single and if and when he find someone else it would mean the end of us. And I agreed to the terms, thought I could handle a fling without getting emotionally attached. You see I had build up this fantasy with him and I wanted to experience him.
I didn’t even asked about veronie… I didn’t even care… all that matters is …I’m going get my chance to enjoy him as much as I want to… and i couldn’t wait for that time to come..
We made a date one evening …. I was so excited and a bit nervous.. as I got ready I was getting so flustered and getting a stir with thought of loving on him.. and having him loving me..I was anxious just to be next to him..
but at the last minute he cancelled because his brother got himself in some kind of trouble ad he said he have to go take care of him…, and I thought WOW!! What a guy so dedicated to his family. I was so intrigued by him from the beginning.
I was very disappointed to say the least.. but I understood.. I was so impressed with how caring he was and how loyal and kind he seems to be..
and I waited impatiently for the next time….
TO BE CONTINUED……..