I got my wish…my dream to reconnect with My SWEET ALLEN..
He came back online and when I saw him.. I said hi..
He did not respond immediately and so after a couple of days I tried again.. I wasn’t too sure if it was him or someone new with his old number…but his page became active and I was so curious and hopeful that its him….
He responded .. asking what’s my name…
I told him.. Wendy/ Nita..
He went silent.. so I just comment that it seems like he doesn’t want to talk to me…
He replied with.. he doesn’t think it would be healthy…
I had heard those same words from him before… when I had suggested that he come see me..to let me know the man who stole my heart..
That has convinced me…It was Allen..I smile so pleased that I got a chance to talk to him again..
I have waited so long to see him again.. and here he is…
I tried talking to him.. telling how I was so happy to see him back.
“I have waited two years for you to come back on. ..Please talk to me a little .. I asked of him…
“I won’t get all crazy on you ..” I promised..
“Just this once..
I have always hope you would have come back.. ”
I keep trying to talk.. but he was not responding…
I then told him that I ran our story on my blog and just how much my audience loved it.. and I sent him two of my best recent photos…
Trying to let him see I’m not as gross looking as he thought I was..
And I left him at that…
It felt so good to see him back but obviously he didn’t really care to reconnect with me..
I felt a little disheartening but a little understanding… I promise myself to leave him alone… I stood there so consumed with thoughts of him.. and I keep going back in time remembering our last communications and conversations and how cold he was towards me…
Just how hurt he was that.. that beautiful tall thin girl was not Available to him…and how he hated me for giving him her then taking her away and replacing me as substitute… me… no comparison.. He just couldn’t get pass my deception and lies..
I sit here again.. after two years…with tears in my eyes… still wanting to be that girl… knowing I could never be a replacement…
And knowing I gave him her as a visual…
I guess I had better leave it where it’s at..
My wounds are still wet on the inside and very easy to reopen … my heart may never be mended…
Yes it all come flooding back and I was drowning in self-pity.. regrets of deception and Of losing him…and guilt of being so wrong…
A couple of hours later he responded to me..
“Wow! I think I’d like to read your blog. And thank you for the pictures.”
I smile so huge.. and ask him if he wanted me to send him the links to the episodes..
He replied..”yes please do..”
I was thinking he was just being nice.. but I sent him the first three sequels..
I was hoping he would see how well I had improved on my writing and I wanted his comments..
I waited up to three days anticipating his comments on our story and the chance of having him connecting and communicating with me again.. I was hoping our story would be a icebreaker ..
None came.. he seems to just be ignoring me.. so I decided to send him a Text.. to reassure him..
“Hey ￼ ..
I’m just here thinking about you..
Yesss I still do..
I understand your reluctance to connect with me again..
and I’m so pleased ￼ that you didn’t block me..
Anyways it’s been two years since our time together…
And I have moved beyond it.. I have grown some.. and got a little experience with social media..
Tango has been my friend and I have made some really good friends on over the last two years..
I waited this long to see you back here..
But I won’t be a bother.
To my surprise.. he answered….
“You’re super sweet and I’m not worried at all.”
I just replied.. “smiling huge “.
I didn’t think he really wanted to talk to me so I didn’t try to instigate a conversation….
I will just leave him alone … for now…
I wanted to remain unattached and try not be harassing and give him his space.. after all it’s been two years since our little affair and it ended on a bad note.. and the question of why he is back on, have me reflecting on how we all met.. he could be just here to browse to find girls to have a good time..
I find myself thinking about him, and I feel my emotions re surfacing but it comes with doubts.. he hasn’t given me any reasons to believe that he is interested in reconnecting in any way with me…
I decided to just ignore him for a while.. he hasn’t block me so I will wait and see if he reached out to me..
Two weeks passed and of course he didn’t so on valentine’s day I decided to send him a valentine’s greetings and the link to the epilogue of our story which include our only valentine’s we shared..with a little note..
“just want to share he epilogue of our story..and the valentine’s day we shared…still remember you and your words…
“And I still holds you so close to my heart..Thank you so much for loving me and giving me one of the best experience ever…I truly enjoyed every single moment we shared..
LOVE ALWAYS , WENDY/NITA…”
I got nothing back…
Two days after was my birthday so I text him to remind him.. And let him know that I would love to see a birthday wish from him..
And He obliged… I was elated… he text…
“Happy Birthday Sweet Girl!! I hope you are happy and healthy and enjoying you day.. Please make sure you take a moment to enjoy something just for you today..”
I responded quite happily,
Smiling huge 😊
Cheesecake and wine 🍷
That’s my treat..
And thank you 😊 so very much for my birthday 🎉 wish..
It’s like divine bliss..
I so appreciate you taking time to stopping by..
it gives me such a thrill..
you still means the world 🌎 to me..
Always.. Wendy/ Nita..
“Have a great night wendy..” he text back…
It kinda bothers me that he never address me by the nickname he gave me…but I think I was just being petty .
I was so pleased that he took the time to wish me happy birthday…
STAY TUNE FOR PART TWO…