I got my wish…my dream to reconnect with My SWEET ALLEN..
He came back online and when I saw him.. I said hi..
He did not respond immediately and so after a couple of days I tried again.. I wasn’t too sure if it was him or someone new with his old number…but his page became active and I was so curious and hopeful that its him….
He responded .. asking what’s my name…
I told him.. Wendy/ Nita..
He went silent.. so I just comment that it seems like he doesn’t want to talk to me…
He replied with.. he doesn’t think it would be healthy…
I had heard those same words from him before… when I had suggested that he come see me..to let me know the man who stole my heart..
That has convinced me…It was Allen..I smile so pleased that I got a chance to talk to him again..
I have waited so long to see him again.. and here he is…
I tried talking to him.. telling how I was so happy to see him back.
“I have waited two years for you to come back on. ..Please talk to me a little .. I asked of him…
“I won’t get all crazy on you ..” I promised..
“Just this once..
I have always hope you would have come back.. ”
I keep trying to talk.. but he was not responding…
I then told him that I ran our story on my blog and just how much my audience loved it.. and I sent him two of my best recent photos…
Trying to let him see I’m not as gross looking as he thought I was..
And I left him at that…
It felt so good to see him back but obviously he didn’t really care to reconnect with me..
I felt a little disheartening but a little understanding… I promise myself to leave him alone… I stood there so consumed with thoughts of him.. and I keep going back in time remembering our last communications and conversations and how cold he was towards me…
Just how hurt he was that.. that beautiful tall thin girl was not Available to him…and how he hated me for giving him her then taking her away and replacing me as substitute… me… no comparison.. He just couldn’t get pass my deception and lies..
I sit here again.. after two years…with tears in my eyes… still wanting to be that girl… knowing I could never be a replacement…
And knowing I gave him her as a visual…
I guess I had better leave it where it’s at..
My wounds are still wet on the inside and very easy to reopen … my heart may never be mended…
Yes it all come flooding back and I was drowning in self-pity.. regrets of deception and Of losing him…and guilt of being so wrong…
A couple of hours later he responded to me..
“Wow! I think I’d like to read your blog. And thank you for the pictures.”
I smile so huge.. and ask him if he wanted me to send him the links to the episodes..
He replied..”yes please do..”
I was thinking he was just being nice.. but I sent him the first three sequels..
I was hoping he would see how well I had improved on my writing and I wanted his comments..
I waited up to three days anticipating his comments on our story and the chance of having him connecting and communicating with me again.. I was hoping our story would be a icebreaker ..
None came.. he seems to just be ignoring me.. so I decided to send him a Text.. to reassure him..
“Hey οΏΌ ..
I’m just here thinking about you..
Yesss I still do..
I understand your reluctance to connect with me again..
and I’m so pleased οΏΌ that you didn’t block me..
Anyways it’s been two years since our time together…
And I have moved beyond it.. I have grown some.. and got a little experience with social media..
Tango has been my friend and I have made some really good friends on over the last two years..
I waited this long to see you back here..
But I won’t be a bother.
Promise…. “
To my surprise.. he answered….
“You’re super sweet and I’m not worried at all.”
I just replied.. “smiling huge “.
I didn’t think he really wanted to talk to me so I didn’t try to instigate a conversation….
I will just leave him alone … for now…
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I wanted to remain unattached and try not be harassing and give him his space.. after all it’s been two years since our little affair and it ended on a bad note.. and the question of why he is back on, have me reflecting on how we all met.. he could be just here to browse to find girls to have a good time..
I find myself thinking about him, and I feel my emotions re surfacing but it comes with doubts.. he hasn’t given me any reasons to believe that he is interested in reconnecting in any way with me…
I decided to just ignore him for a while.. he hasn’t block me so I will wait and see if he reached out to me..
Two weeks passed and of course he didn’t so on valentine’s day I decided to send him a valentine’s greetings and the link to the epilogue of our story which include our only valentine’s we shared..with a little note..
“just want to share he epilogue of our story..and the valentine’s day we shared…still remember you and your words…
“And I still holds you so close to my heart..Thank you so much for loving me and giving me one of the best experience ever…I truly enjoyed every single moment we shared..
LOVE ALWAYS , WENDY/NITA…”
I got nothing back…
Two days after was my birthday so I text him to remind him.. And let him know that I would love to see a birthday wish from him..
And He obliged… I was elated… he text…
“Happy Birthday Sweet Girl!! I hope you are happy and healthy and enjoying you day.. Please make sure you take a moment to enjoy something just for you today..”
I responded quite happily,
Smiling huge π
Cheesecake and wine π·
That’s my treat..
And thank you π so very much for my birthday π wish..
It’s like divine bliss..
I so appreciate you taking time to stopping by..
it gives me such a thrill..
you still means the world π to me..
Always.. Wendy/ Nita..
“Have a great night wendy..” he text back…
It kinda bothers me that he never address me by the nickname he gave me…but I think I was just being petty .
I was so pleased that he took the time to wish me happy birthday…
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STAY TUNE FOR PART TWO…
Oh wow again. Story began !
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Yess.. it is . But with an abrupt ending….
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enjoyed reading…….
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I’m so happy π you did..
thanks for reading π and for commenting ..
really appreciated
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Is this true ?
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Yep. True story…
If you scroll down you will find the story of us..
“Online dating.. first experience..”
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Nita it’s nice to see that you have found someone you like, forgive me if you feel I’m being too forward but I think you shouldn’t push yourself too much or make yourself dependent upon his responses.
Give yourself some space and time from him to heal, he doesn’t seem to be forthcoming with his delayed responses or none at all. Do you want it like this?
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Thanks so much for your great advice…
You have to understand why I’m so pleased π to talk to him.
But I’m trying to contain my desires. And leave him be..
You are right.. he doesn’t really have the desires to reconnect with me on certain levels..
But part two is coming out this weekend.. check it out..
Maybe you will understand us some more..
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I’m looking forward to reading the next part.
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Thank for for your support..
it just inspire and motivate me… to write and tell my stories
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Oh please do as your posts are intriguing.
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Thank you so very much..
I appreciate your sweet comments
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Aaw my pleasure indeed.
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It’s a pleasure indeed
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Ah okay, sure will check it out.
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Well, this IS interesting! Glad to see u writing Nita. π
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I got an inspiration..
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Hey bill.. waiting on your next tale..
come on.. give us something.. to make us drool
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It was good to have some sort of return to the story. I’m sure you can win him over before long. I hope you do π
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Hahahaha.. we’ll see. Paul…
He acting very distant…
and I’m not sure π€ he is interested in reconciliation
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It must be tough to accept that given your depth of feeling towards him. It’s never just as easy as moving on either despite what people say to the contrary.
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So true Paul..
and I’ve been holding on to these feelings every so tightly..
But I have accepted our fate..
And a little hesitant π and apprehensive ..
But my feelings are still so very strong… and holding back is so hard..
thank you for being so understanding .. it’s really not as as easy to move beyond it..
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It’ll click into place for you before long. Getting over a person is very difficult when you don’t physically WANT to get over them. You need another man to come along and sweep you off your feet I think π
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Paul.. that is true.. I don’t want to get over him..
I do need another to takes to the heights of divine ecstasy…
I so love to be up there… it’s a high I always crave for..
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I think most people do. We yearn to give love every bit as much as we yearn to receive it.
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Enjoyed reading this,
And definitely waiting for the part 2 π
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Thanks so much for visiting. And enjoying with me my reconnection
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Njoyed reading..!!!
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Great π!!!
Thanks so much for visiting and taking the the to read and even enjoy π…
smiling huge
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OMG Nita!! This is amazing π xo
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You think so my sweet girl..
Thanks.
I really got me to thrill too..
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I bet you did! It made my heart skip a beat just reading it π
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Right???
I couldn’t believe it myself..
I was very pleased with say the least…
my heart did a
Somersault
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I want part 2! ha
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Hahahaha… part two is releasing on Saturday..
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Yay I can’t wait for the next part !
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Smiling huge…
Make a date.. it’s releasing on Saturday…
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Yes! this is literally my favourite blog
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Your favorite blog..???!!!!
Oooooh my..
you have me smiling so brightly..
Thank you girl.. because it’s my favorite story..
I’m so happy π that you are enjoying it with me..
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Yeah for sure! I found the story really exciting like a movie haha
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Laughing π out loudly.. π€£ππ€£π
It’s actually like a movie π₯ dear..
my whole life is like a movie ..
With lots of reruns…
Hahahaha
You know no matter how bad and sad things ends up..
the joys and the times with all the wonderful feelings and memories attached..
Make these ending of sad π and bad. All so worthwhile….
and I’m always so very happy π and elated to have the experience of such profound joy and exhilaration .. the thrill of it all..
Without it..
we wouldn’t know that pain and sorrow…
I call it the sweetest hurt there is..
and through the tears I smile..
when I reminisce..!!
Sorry to be so elaborating..
but I’m just in one of my nostalgic moods..
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What I like about your writing is that you bring us along with you and we get to feel it to. You definitely respect the experience and manage to take the good from it π
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Oooooh Maaan.. I should have been a writer.
You are so sweet.. and you have just become my biggest fan..
You have take the good from every fond moments..
and never regret.. But savor..
Thanks for my sweet girl..
I’m smiling tons..
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You can become a writer at any time ,
As Far as I am concerned you already are! You should write a book! I’m glad you are happy but it’s the truth π
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I thought about it.. ” My love- love.. ” story..
but I never really materialized the thought..
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If you did I would buy it haha or anything else you would write
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Oooooh my.. I better get starting on that
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Hi Nita, I’ve missed youπ Sounds like a complicated history with him but seems like some of his pain (and yours) may have faded with time. You are sometimes hard on yourself about what you are able to offer a man. You have such beautiful spirt, kind heart, and divinely erotic mind ππ You deserve a man that will return the same love and passion to you that you give to him.π
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Hey Michael..
You are so insightful to assume that our pain has diminished and dissipated with time..
I guess you are right about my self worth..
and thanks for all those lovely sensational adjectives that you used to describe me…
He made me feel exactly how you are making me feel right now..
And that’s why I’m so emotionally attached with this intensity…
I have hold on to the feeling.. trying not to loose it..
So I’m smiling tons.. Michael..
you just made my day….
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Pretty Nita, you make my day with every interactionπ Feeling this type of energy is always a special gift. You sure know how to give it, and I hope you always feel it returned π₯π
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Thank you π dearest Michael…
I’m so happy π to know I made you day with my interactions..
You always say the sweetest things.. you write so beautifully and everything you say touch me in a way which is unexplainable..
I feel that energy too..
… I just released part two today..
tell me what you think.. ???
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It’s hard to hold back. It took me years to get over a guy. Funny how the internet gives so much more emotion than in real life. We anticipate so much . We hope for much more than there is. The feelings are true for that moment in time. Unrequited love. Good luck with him. Been there done that and well hehehe live for the moment π
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Yep…
unrequited love…
Maaan.. it’s the most beautiful frustrating kind of love there is…
I guess we never really get over someone we really love…
He was first online emotional affair.. and I just never realized how easily one could feel connected and how words can creates emotions so intense…
as you said we anticipated and hope for so much more.. we only see and imagine exactly what we wanted..
thanks for being so sweet and understanding of my experience…
Lol π.. I have been living in that moment…and actually loving every single minute …
Smiling tons ππ€π
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I’ve fallen too many a times so I know . I’m real careful now. I still keep in contact with the guys that I was emotionally involved with . Years on we are just friends .
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Funny π thing is . I have done the same thing.. all my exes and me are great friends..
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May be we were meant to be friends π after the years I’ve been thinking what’s the thing that made me fell? Nothing much .But in the moment oh my..
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Oooooh my .. is the word..
It’s all about In moment when everything is so beautiful π and right.. and when you are feeling on top of the world π.
Maybe our paths has crossed for this purpose..
It’s always so awesome when you find someone who you are insync with..
and share the same views on things..
I will love to be your friend…dewy
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Likewise π
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I was totally absorbed in your story
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Smiling so huge..
And so glad you find it so glad π to be so absorbed…
You will get part two tomorrow
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I’ll be waiting
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Smiling huge
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Profoundly beautiful. And an another story began..
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IOooooh thank you π…,
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Pleasure is mine. Will glad to have your views on my latest post
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But of course… heading over right now
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Thanks muchβ€
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Very nice. You are a good writer. Thank you for following BrewNSpew.
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Smiling huge…
I always love when someone says , “I’m a good π writer “…
It’s really a wonderful feeling..,
Because I want to be that good…
and I know I’m lacking so much..
Thanks for reading and liking..
I will always check out your posts… and I’m sure I will enjoy your stories too
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Just keep up what you are doing and you’ll do well. π
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Awww!!
You are so nice π ..
I will miss Eugenia
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Interesting that the “old” flame came back . . .
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Yep π i was very tickled
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Great read. Really enjoyed. Stoked for part two!
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Thanks Benn..
I hope you enjoyed it
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