When do you know when to let go of people that has been apart of your life for as long as you are alive..???
(Example.. relatives… siblings.. friends..)
All my life I have been treated with such distaste by my sisters and relatives..
I have suffered so much indignity. And live through so much indifference.. so much I became apathetic…
I never had much friends in my life.. and my sisters used to shun me and treated me as if they are so much smarter and better than I was…
And I actually allowed them to.. I give them control over me.. I think I was hoping if I give in they would accept me as a part of their group.. and I remember wanting so much to be …
All that happens was they just make fun of me.. I was like their biggest joke..
And how did I respond to all that..
by withdrawing more.. and hiding myself behind closed doors.. feeling sorry for myself.. trying to figure out why am I so different.. why can’t they like me..
As I get older I learn how to be a loner.. I eventually find a friend or two..which lasted to this day…
And I have learned to let go of all that mistreatment.. and try to have a normal relationship with my sisters..
I guess old habits are hard to let go.. because I still see them treating me with the same attitude.. which I mostly ignored..
I have changed..
why can’t they..
as adults.. our lives are almost on the same level..
I was the first to achieve and accomplished progressively… due to a very smart choice… I got married to my friend… and so I was in the position to help them both until …
they eventually did too.. yet they still look down at me as if they are way above me…
And the funniest thing is .. I still try to get their approval.. still try to win their friendship and love..
I come to realize that it’s a losing battle..
decides it’s time to let go of them.. they will never see me as equal or has someone to be proud of…
They are always gonna look down on me..
I don’t need them in my life…
Do I..??? Nah….
I have talked to my friends about my decision.. of course they all disagreed with me and my reasons..
And as much as I can understand and value their opinions and arguments..
I stand by my choice.. I think it’s for the best for me..
if I don’t have to interact with them… there will be no reason for me to think about them.. therefore all this feelings of rejection.. unloved.. unacceptance … will no longer affects me…
We have to do what we think is right for us….and I do think this is right for me..
I’m letting go of them.. I’m freeing myself.. cutting the ties that bind…
I have overcome it all by myself… without their help.. and if they could have been of assistance to me.. they’d refused…
I have grown.. I have learned … and I have accomplished..
I don’t need any ones permission to walk away.. and stay away… or to let go….
I’m content in who I am and where I have reached.. I have everything I need to be completely happy..
I have been duly blessed..with valuable friends and two amazing children
So I’m choosing to let go of everything that’s negative.. and only take time for all the positive influences in my world..