ALL GOOD THINGS MUST END…
We were doing well until about two months down the line.. you see Cory has his own preferences and likes… and he confided in me these things…
I indulge him when he first told me… we all have something we are into that’s our personal secrets..
So I understood this and let him go on about it.. I even encouraged him and give him room to express his feelings… I joked with him and entertained his habits even it was not something I particularly find joy in…
After a while when I realize that he chooses to share much too often these likes with photos…videos… or little jokes which tickles him …. but actually annoys me or as much as repulse me .. I asked him kindly not to share anymore with me because I don’t enjoy them …
He agrees but he continues to send them to me… so on this particular day he sent me some photos which he finds very interesting… and I guess amusing…
I said to him…
” Cory I Don’t find joy in these photos.. please stop sending me them”…
It was a text message…
Maan…. did he get upset…
He started to call me selfish and controlling….and claimed that he would never tell me to stop sending him photos even if he doesn’t like them..
He proceeded to call me 🤙 directly and we ended up in an heated argument … me being very belligerent and him criticizing my character.. trying to tell me how I am and how I like to control things.. I
I even reminded him of an incident where he did not like a inspirational video I sent because he had very different opinions and views about these kinds of videos….
We did have a discussion about it with me trying to convince him to see it through my eyes… and I had to end up accepting defeat and I promise him I will not share anymore of these kind of videos with him…
And I didn’t anymore…
I totally disagree with the fact that I am controlling and telling I own my right to choose what I like or don’t…
We were talking verbally and I’m very weak in conversation verbally… especially when I’m getting angry…
I ask him why is he attacking my character and why is he questioning my morals and dignity…
He continues to say how very selfish I am and how I am ; giving me all kinds of examples from our pass conversations…
So after I realize I’m here trying to justify my self and trying to explain too much to him .. just because I asked him not to send me those pics…
I hung up with him…
After I calm down a little.. I sent him a text asking him to let’s move past this topic seeing that we have established what I am and who I am…
He responded back .. agreeing to do so…
I did not hear from him the next few days.. he ignored all my text messages .. so I give a couple more days and send him another text…
I asked him if his lack of communication means that our friendship is over… he responded back that we have nothing to talk about unless I call him directly without the texting mode…
To be honest I was kinda annoyed with his attitude… so I told him I will call him another day…
And I told him I hope we can move on with our friendship as is .. and put all this stuff behind us…
He again tells me it’s just me trying to control everything and it’s only about what I want… he said he is not finished with our conversation as yet..
oooh boy!!!(sigh)…..
I just texted ok..
And stop …
After two days I decided to call him like he requested.. and it wasn’t long before we ended up back where we left off..I tried my best to explain and begging 🥺 him to just drop it.. because I don’t see the sense in us arguing about a subject that has no relevance to what started the whole thing.. me asking him to stop sending me those pictures….
But he just wouldn’t let go.. and then he mentioned that he was not the only one that thinks I’m controlling…
Now this started a whole new argument…because I got really upset asking him who is The others… because there is no others in our circle…
So after a few minutes of debating on that and I came up with the conclusion that the other can only be ABBEY…. she is our only mutual connection… I ended our conversation again…
Of course this really did not go well with him…but I cannot have a reasonable discussion when I’m upset….
so I sent him another text message pleading with him to let get past this phase and move forward….
He was at all receptive to this suggestion because he said we have unfinished topics…
So I let another couple days go by before I attempt again to resume our communication… he also refused to connect with me…leaving me thinking that he was waiting on me to make the first move….
I really didn’t want us to end on this note or was I willing to give up on our friendship; and so I try to be the more mature one and make that attempt to resolve our differences…
However before I call I sent him a text stating that I really want to move beyond our dispute … asking him to let’s leave it where it is…
He somehow agrees and so I called…
The conversation started on a very good note…and we talked about other subjects until he decided he wanted to mention something pertaining to the past conversations..
I allowed him.. thinking I’m going to stay as calm as I can and try to see if I can answer his questions and move away from it..
But.. again it spiral out of control and he made comments that really irks me… and I couldn’t get him to change the subject so I abruptly hang up… i was very mad at him and myself for allowing him to get me to this point..
And so I send him this last text….
“I have had enough of your questioning of me..
I think it’s time for me to exit on this relationship we call friendship…
I can’t do this anymore..
You obviously can’t accept me as is and so you have the choice not to…
It was good while it lasted
I’m just too old to be trying to explain myself and justify me to ya..
We were just friends…
Not enough for you to convict me and crucify me for being me…
Goodbye 👋 Cory.
I hate how you twist everything around to suit you
And contradicts yourself.
Just so you can pin me in a corner..
You
Just pushed me over the edge…
So you just killed me with everything we were….
You win
You successfully destroyed me.. and our friendship..”
I know I was very impulsive but I just had about enough of those irrelevant subject…
So I thought I would give him a break for us to forget all this nonsense…
I know my text sounded final.. but I’m hoping I can resume connection after some time have passed…
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TO BE CONTINUED….
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