LOVABLE LENA


……. so after eight years of begging for a granddaughter… my older son and wife finally became pregnant…
I was very elated….ecstatically happy…. I was all there and very much involved with her pregnancy…
We couldnโt wait to find out if was a girl.. and we all prayed with high hopes… my son was over the moon with joy when it was revealed that she was a girl indeed.. I also share in his joy and we spent hours talking about his daughter arrival..
I presumptuously made plans to baby sit and everything… I was super excited to be able to take care of her…
But…
Fate was not as kind to me…
We had her baby shower in November.. and everything seems fine up to that point.. A month later I decided to call to check up on her and baby..
I was baby sitting little Lani..but her mom had taken her to see her grandmother ๐ต.. so I was home alone.. we started our conversation with casual chitchat… and I happen to mention her upcoming wedding anniversary… asking her her plans..
She then informed me that she was on vacation and silly me… do the unthinkable and invited my silly ass over… that visit took a turn for the worst.. we got in an argument that put a big strain on our relationship….
( This story is told in my blog post… Titled….โA SLAP ๐ IN THE FACE โ… check it out to see the details of that incident…)
It was a couple weeks before Christmas ๐ and I have made big plans to have Christmas at their home.. it was their first Christmas in their new home….
So that plan was shattered to pieces and I ended up having Christmas alone.. for the first time without my eldest son…
I went through my emotions and just as I was getting passed it .. two days after Christmas ๐ … here comes little Lena…
And because of our little dispute and her refusal to reconnect… I couldnโt be a part of her birth..
I didnโt get to see little Lena or hold her until she was approximately six weeks..
My son took her over… ooh what pleasure it was just to hold her for the first time… she was so.. so …adorable… and in the space of four months I only got to see her in person three times… and of course my great plan of babysitting her flew through the window..
Iโm still so happy ๐ to have a second granddaughter ……but it really saddens me to know that I donโt have the privilege like I have with my sweet little Lani…
I yearned for more time with her… but with momโs not wanting anything to do with her mom -in- law.. and me.. not ever going back to their home unless I get an invite from mom… I know thatโs never going to be possible….
I guess I just have to deal with it … and take her whenever my son decided to take her over… no matter how infrequent that maybe..
I still find tremendous and profound joy in able to say..
โ I have two most beautiful… adorable ๐…. sweet… precious.. little angels ๐ผ for granddaughters….
I maybe the distant grandma ๐ต…
But…
Life do gives beautiful gifts ๐….
And Iโm never too far away to love ๐ them and enjoy them.. I can finally say I got my dream of having girls…
They are definitely โ A DREAM COME TRUE โ…..
This is so touching..felt as if I was reading my amma (mom) for some reasons..hugs to you
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Thanks ๐ so much for stopping by and reading…
Your amma must be such a wonderful grandma ๐ต
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