ONLINE DATING:FIRST EXPERIENCE; part 9c

DEAR READERS…. THIS SEQUENCE IS ANOTHER X- RATED SERIES… MOST OF YOU MAY NOT APPRECIATE OR APPROVE AND MIGHT FIND IT DISTASTEFUL AND GROSS… and …I DO APOLOGIZE FOR OFFENDING ANY ONE…but…  I WANTED ALL TO REALIZE JUST HOW SERIOUSLY AFFECTED  I WAS BY ALLEN AND JUST HOW EMOTIONALLY INVOLVED I HAVE BECOME…TO ME… HE WAS SO REAL AND I WAS FULLY AND TOTALLY INVESTED… I WAS SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH A MAN JUST FROM A VIRTUAL CONNECTION.. ) and I was as physically Affected as I was emotionally…. and I find that  he exudes a very strong and insatiable sexual energy …

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I THOUGHT THAT WAS THE END OF OUR CONVERSATION…but…HE SENT ANOTHER TEXT….

Nita… he once again called my name.

“I’m getting hard… should I jerk off thinking about you… about sucking your little pink pussy? About stuffing you full of cock?…. or should I go to bed! Yes I’m dirty.”

“do whatever makes you feel good.”I told him.

And yes you love that too!!! He stated. “No! It’s us or nothing.

I do.’ I said to him.

Jerk with me?’ he asked.

Can’t.. Got company in my bed.” I told him. My little cousin sleep over.

So tell me baby… he was asking me. “Do you rub your clit or put your fingers in your pussy… or both? Tell me lover.

He was creating quite a stir in me; my kitty, she start to twitch a little but I could not please her tonight because Paige was beside me sleeping.

“Both” I told him.

“That’s fine I understand. But you can tell me.. hey, that’s great… ok I will keep it clean. Please sleep well sweet girl.

I then told him, I even taste my cum….. Gross.

I don’t know why I find it so easy for me to tell him things like this which I never reveal to anybody else. And I thought I he would find it quite disgusting… but…

He surprise me by saying, ‘god, I love that. I taste mine too.

You do!’ I said in disbelief.

It natural, he stated. I want to know what it’s like.”

Really? I asked. “I thought it would gross you out… Me too,” I confess to want to know what it taste like.

Anyone that says they don’t is a liar.” He tells me. “We are honest.”

“Too honest, I said to him. “Can’t believe I’m admitting this to you.

And so your pussy… I will make you take it all in your mouth …. And spit it in mine… nice and slow.” He was telling me. You will finger yourself … and put it in my mouth.

I told him, “You are freaky.”

No, I am sexy.’ He countered.

I sent two smiley faces. I was smiling and thinking.. ” yes you are”…. but I did say it to him.. I was too busy reading what he was writing… and my fingers was finding it’s way into my panties.. so I couldn’t stop to write….

I want to feel and taste you.’ He let me know. And you will take care of me … and I will accommodate you in any way you want to.

So I told him. “And I want to feel that hard thick dick in me.” [I was feeling bold I guess or just plain horny for a hard dick…

“And I will show you how special your pussy is… and how much I wanted to taste you… we will be perfect because we are comfortable baby… he reassure me. I will fill you full lover. He let me know.

“That’s right my Allen..” I responded. “I bet you will”

You will cum in your man’s mouth … and all over his hard cock. He was saying. And you will cums tons baby… and when you think you can’t take anymore… I will suck you one more time out.”

“I do hope so because I love to cum.” I let him know.

And he keeps on going. Then you might be done… baby… you will cum till you ask me to stop… if that’s what you want… I will pull my hard cock out of you and ask you to suck me or jerk me… and we will change up stuff up like every few minutes!

My kitty was starting to jump around wanting to be touch and played with but I couldn’t .. but my fingers couldn’t resist either… I was slowly and gently playing with miss kitty…

‘Thought you were tired’ I asked. “Aha ha” I said to him. [Is what I want] “You are too much but I’m enjoying every bit of you. I told him.

“And I will lick your little pussy… spank your little ass… then stuff you full of dick again. Kissing you deep.” He keep describing what he is gonna do, while my kitty is soaking wet and ready to explode.

So I told him, you are getting my kitty really wet and I can’t do anything about it.”

He just ignored me, and continued, “Telling you what’s next… jerk that pussy.”

And now I know…. He was jerking off. So I said, ok, let me work with him.

I can’t bear much more,” I told him.

• I couldn’t resist any longer…so I give my kitty the pleasure she was seeking and with just one touch I cum with such a force it was unbelievable. And she still want some more… so I try to be as calm as possible with Paige lying next to me… I was in the heights of ecstasy… my whole body was convulsing and jerking with so much pleasure ….

And he kept me entertained, “it’s mine now!!! I want to eat your next huge load… can you deliver… give me cum baby… it’s mine…deliver… in my mouth… let me swallow you!!… I know you are Cumming…. It’s mine…”

And I’m wondering how he knows I’m Cumming… I’m on my third round… so I said to him…

“Ok here it comes.”

Now” he said.

“You can have it.” I told him.

“Let me eat it” he begged.

“almost.” I told him

Now sexy… I want my load. He begged some more.

Eat it eat it.” I told him.

Deliver… fuck yeah… give me cum… that’s mine…. He kept on asking.

Ok do it.’ I begged of him. “Cum Allen.”

You want cum baby?” he’s asking. “Jerk your pussy… I want a second.

I’m still playing along trying to encourage him, “fuck it… fuck it baby… I said.

I was all caught up in the heat of the moment… visualizing vividly..and yearning his touch…. so much I could feel his him as though he was near me….

“If I’m Cumming you cum with me,” he told me.

Yes… yes… yes…” I said.

Spread that tight pussy for me sexy. Let me have.” He begged.

“Spreading… wide… “ I let him know.”

I was responding and actually performing his request and doing everything he suggested…

Let’s do this… he said. Fingers in… three.

Yes let’s do this.’ I agreed.

“Here comes your load.” He said. “Inside.”

Awwww … I got it. I told him. {that’s me trying to entertain him because I really couldn’t go to that extreme tonight.. I have had my fill quietly }

I think he had reached his climax, because he said,

“Jesus….”

“Omg…”

“my goodness…”

Thank you baby,’ I told him. And I sent him two smiley face…

“I came huge thinking about you.” he informs me. “You blow my mind.”

I went, ooooh.” Was so touched.

Please sleep well baby,” he tells me. “Oh and baby… please save our passion for us…” he asks.

You blow my mind too.’ I let him know. “I will… I will.” { save our passion for us.}

“Please let me know if you want to play around… I will understand… I just need to have my head in the right place,” he has me know.

You should sleep well now, I told him.

Yes,’ he agreed. I will sleep perfect.

I was there pondering about his statement about me wanting to play around and wondering where that come from… what was he thinking of… what was his motive for thinking like this.

So I asks him,’ play around? With whom… you?

With whomever.” He stated.

Only you.” I told him trying to convince him.

[ I did not want him to think I was promiscuous or anything of the sorts; because I’m not and even though I’m playing a mean and cruel game with him; it was important to me for him not to think badly of me; I was totally in love with him and I want him to like me and think the best of me.}

I just need to know that it’s only us… if not… or…” he was trying to explain.

Why would I want t do that? I asks.

I have no idea… he told me. “I just need to be cordial”

So I try to be more convincing let him realize I have no intention or I don’t want to be with anybody else; not now anyways, not after what I was now experiencing with him.

So I told him, ‘if I was going to I would do so already… it’s by choice that I don’t.

Doesn’t he realize and know that after him with all his passionate and his silly crazy love for me; he’s the only one I want to be with and the only one my heart desires.

Ok love… just want to put it out there… he said.” I want us by choice always. He sounded convinced.

And again I kind of forget I could not give any of what I was promising. I was so caught up in our love and in the moment that I was giving him a lot of false hope; unintentionally… but I was.

Ok… at least we understand each other.’ I say to him.

Night beautiful!!! I’ll be dreaming of us!!! He bade me goodnight. “Yes we do”

You got it.’ I told him. “Night my sweet… thank you for staying up late and sharing with me.”

Night beautiful!! Sweet dreams pretty girl!! He said again. God… what a perfect Christmas gift… Us. I love you Wakanita!

I love you Allen!” I let him know. “Isn’t that so true.”[The most perfect Christmas gift.]

We finished our conversation and I lay there feeling so hilariously happy to be loved by him. Because I could feel that he does; I could sense his every emotions and I going over in my mind all we just talk about and our sexual fantasy and even though I did not like the fact that he was seeing Paige face when he think of us and when he dream, he visualized her; I know I gave it to him; and then I remember this profound joy I was experiencing was not going to last. I have to tell him… I can’t do this to him any longer… but how? He is going to hate me and I can’t expect for him to like me; I’m not that pretty twenty year old girl. Right now I wish to be 20 again; I know I would definitely have a chance with him. But I’m not… and I don’t… and I can’t give him Paige…

How I love him so… and I know he loves me… no Paige… whoever…. I just know that he’s in love just like I am; how many times has he told me that we are experiencing this together… GOD!!! I’m going to lose him… I don’t want to… I but I have to let go of him. I have to tell him….

And I drift off to a very disturbed dream; I dream I told him and he was so mad and he says the most cruel things to me and look at me with disgust and repulsiveness; and I just sat there not saying anything , my tears flowing and my heart breaking as I watch him walk away very angry with me with that repulsive look.

I woke up early but I could not say anything to him just yet; I was still upset with what I dream and I know I had to find a way of confessing to him; and the thought of him gone was driving me insane; and is losing him I can’t come terms with, to have him leave and to let this feeling die, right now he is the only living thing that keeping me alive, and tomorrow if I’m here without his love I know I couldn’t survive it. Only his love can save me and I can’t have it. My stomach was all tangled up in knots; how did I get myself in this predicament?

My worst fear is losing him… and I am going to have to….

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TO BE CONTINUED………