MY EMOTIONAL AFFAIR: Loving 🥰 From Afar…

BABY…!!!!

Two people cross paths..from two different continent… form a connection.. became friends.. share each other worlds… is it possible this Bond can developed to affect the heart….

I have an emotional affair with such a person… and we have been corresponding for the better part of six years… we talked everyday.. and I looked forward to our conversations…

There is a time difference of 5-6 hours between us … but no matter how busy he is … he always takes the time to respond to me… acknowledging my text messages…

We communicate mostly via text.. and occasionally a video call … he shared his whole world with me.. and try to involved me in his daily life…

Over the years.. I grew more and more attached to him…. and I find that my heart knows no boundaries… there is 4500 miles between us… and although sometimes I want so much to be able to touch him… I find that I can feel his presence just by having him talk to me…

I do admire him for so many reasons.. he always find something to occupy his time.. he’s very resourceful.. very handy.. especially around his house..

He’s generous.. giving.. caring and loving… he has a family.. a wife with two boys … and they all know of me…

He loves to cook.. and he often shares his menu in steps.. he loves music.. and also love to sing along… which he also shares with me..he coaches his sons soccer teams and is very involved…

He goes fishing with friends.. play video games… he is never idle.. and I love him for his versatility… he’s a jack of all trades.. he works in steel construction… and he never misses a day…

He collects swords.. and cars… he loves to take his family to adventurous venues… he a very passionate man… he loves his family… and he says he loves me…which makes my heart sings.. and put a huge smile on my face…

We have been connecting for almost 7 years..and up to this point I was enjoying the daily connection.. and I was so happy 😁 to have someone to talk to…

He included me in his online games.. connect me with most of his buddies on a chat group… and I thought he was just trying to involve me more into his life…

I was basking in the glory of feeling loved and having someone liking my presence…

And out the blues.. I find my feelings escalating… and then my mind started this whirlwind of negativity…

I started to doubt his attention… yes he still acknowledges my text messages…but keeps it limited…he’s distant… he doesn’t talk to me as much…

I’m becoming insecure… suspicious 😒.. jealous… I started to feel unattractive.. ugly… unworthy…

This guy has not given me any necessary reasons to doubt him.. but my heart is telling me that he has found another interest online…and this thought is screaming in my head…so much.. I’m becoming paranoid and anxious…

If I see him online… I tell myself that he is talking to someone else.

But..

Don’t I have a lot of people talking to .. too.. and it’s all innocent… why can’t it be the same with him.???? Why am I allowing myself to create this imaginary rivalry…

I don’t act on my thoughts though.. because I think I’m just being silly .. he is much too far off to be worried about his actions….

He got his life.. and although he chooses to make me apart of his world.. I have no control over him..

I do love him.. and as I have stated.. my emotions have escalated to a higher level.. which is proving very unhealthy…. I’m demanding more of his time… I’m stalking his chat page…I’m becoming more upset to the point of tears…

I’m feeling rejected.. I don’t think he loves me anymore…I think he’s bored 😐 with me… his conversations has become a one syllable word…

He always seems so preoccupied.. I feel like I’m always disrupting him or disturbing him .. he longer shows no interest in what I have to say…of late he seems very distant.. and very evasive..

I tried to be logical and practical .. try to be self analytical… try to be reasonable…

He’s too far away for me to be having these feelings.. and allowing them to affect me to such degree… I try to suppress these negative emotions and brush them away..

I’m behaving as if I can control him and who he chooses to connect with…

I really fear losing his friendship and this bond that we have form.. but I have a strong feeling that it’s coming to an end… and it’s breaking my heart….

The fear of losing him.. is the worst… I know in all practicality I have no choice in this matter… and I refuse to become one of those obsessive connections…. he does still talk to me and every midnight.. his mornings he would always make me know he’s up.. I look forward to his text every night.. but the last two nights.. nothing…

And my overly active negative imagination.. is telling me it’s because he has someone else talking to…

Why am I creating this negative attitude..??? Why am I after all these years.. allowing myself to reach this point…so I’m continuing to connect with him on the same level without revealing my insecurities and my jealousies….

I do realize that I have to back off with my overwhelmed emotions… let him have his fun with his new playmate… I’m just stale right now.. no more joy in me… I have used up my usefulness and longer hold his interest…

How long did I think it would last… it lasted much longer than expected… I shouldn’t forget how I met him.. he was looking for some fun with someone online and I cannot provide this anymore…

We have shared so much over the past years.. how am I going to get past him if he decided to leave… he so much a part of my existence…. I looked forward to connect with him every day…

But I can understand him drifting away.. I don’t have much to offer anymore.. and he stop suggesting or asking…. I can’t compete with anyone else…. I’m too old… he is my only one that is left…

Funniest thing.. I just come across this perfect quote..

“CHANGE NOTHING…. NOTHING WILL CHANGE “….

How ironic is that??… if I don’t rock this boat with my negativity and my insecurities… we will just keep sailing until we get there… I have been on this path for.. six years… what is so different..

And so what if he found someone else to divulge himself in…

I’m not seeing.. and what the eyes don’t see .. the heart won’t leap… he still acknowledges me.. he still answers me.. he is not ignoring me..

He is giving me the same amount of attention.. I’m only demanding more.. and it makes it seem like he is short changing me…

Aaah 😌…

My sweet love 💕….

TO BE CONTINUED…..

THE WORLD OF WARSHIPS…. THE MIMP REBELS CLAN:

LETS BATTLE IT OUT!!!!!LET THE GAME BEGINS!!!!!

Naval battles .. check out this YouTube video to connect to the site.. and see live videos of the battles fought…

https://www.youtube.com/c/ClementArjanZwaans1973

I would like to introduce you to this online game of war…. Naval Battles…played amongst friends and teammates….

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p5YsZn8VIOE gewoon even gejat.7:4.

Watch this awesome video of introductions

It was created to emulate the simulation in the replica of warships fought in the 1900 to 1950 era… battles are fought in the same manner…. each player is the captain of his own vessel.. and can battle in a group /team of 7- 12 players .. or play individually…

The ships comes in tiers.. there are 10 tiers total…Most are real ships that existed up to tier 8, then it’s mainly paper ships. (That is ships that was designed but never built.. ) It’s about that ship you choose. For instance If you own a T2 ship and T10 ship in your port…If You choose the T2 ship to battle with you will be match with other T2 ships.

After T3 you can only be matched with ships 2 above or 2 below you. So a T8 ship can be mached up with T6 to T10 ships. But a T6 ship matches up with T4 to T8..

When battling with a team. The crew Usually consists of something like 1 CV (aircraft carrier), 2-3 battleships, 3-4 cruisers and 3-4 destroyers per team. They all work together to conquer and be victorious in a battle….

you have a lot of different choices and areas to choose from.. and as you get advanced with XP( experiences points)…. and learn more about how the wars of battle is played.. you will excel to own your line of fleet consisting of your choice of ship tiers.. . But this only comes with battle.. so the more battle fought the faster you move up to the next level…

When playing the game there are things to think about like angling, positioning, what type of ammo to use etc.. all this you will learn as you get into the game…

There are 3 main modes.of battles, co-op, a team of human players Vs AI( the computer), 12 on each side.. And missions that are small teams of players against a scenario..

A scenario is usually a historical battle or one that is made up by one or more players..

The winners an losers of each battle.. earn rewards… known as XP(experience points)… oil or steel… which allows you to upgrade and build structures..You can also buy very specific and stronger ships from that….

you can and is allowed to purchase ships of different tiers to add to your inventory….the complete fleet has four different types of ships…destroyers, cruisers, battleships and aircraft carriers.

All in all…It’s a very entertaining and enthusiastic game.. full of action…. and great firing skills…sharp eyes and quick reflexes…which requires great strategic planning and thinking… each play has to use tactics and knowledge to be able to conquer their opponents..

The knowledge of the navy and ships are a plus.. because it will allow you to understand quickly .. enabling you to advance at a quicker rate…

The mimp ( misfits impossible) Rebels…are recruiting anyone who would love to join up with them.. this team was form and created by some amazing Dutch guys… they are really great team players.. very jovial.. and play just for fun and relaxation..

It’s international and new members are always welcome from all over the world… the diversity is very welcome Because each person brings their own experiences and add their expertise… which only serves to strengthen the “MIMPS REBELS..”

These guys make a great team and would like to expand and build their clans.. they do have a high winning ratio… most of the members rank very high in their conquests…. they have remarkable skill in combat and knows how to maneuver the ships to defeat their enemies….

They are willing to teach every new members to the fullest…all you need is a passion for war games and a great persona for having fun… everyone is a winner in this game…

new members however has to start off slow…you’ll be advised not to…buy a premium ship … first thing off …as you need to learn the game first. The American line is the best line recommended to start on as it is well rounded, good at everything but not excellent at anything. Watch YouTube videos on the game and just have fun.

This is a very prominent member “ BLACKJACK” he post videos of the battles to his Facebook page.. he will be very willing also to answer any and every queries… he also stream the naval battles live on “TWITCH “…..

https://www.facebook.com/blackjackgames

The DISCORD APP.. is use as the platform to create the community for all members…this is where all battles take place…

The rebels.. also created a group chat for their clan to allow the opportunity to communicate .. they are hoping to form a family like environment.. where everyone can share and connect with each other… it’s another community platform with a more personal effect..for “ The Mimp Rebels”…

This chat group comes with perks… such as.. you get to Share stuff, bounce ideas of people and you can get clan bonuses, like misfits give you 4% commander bonus XP per battle and 10% reduction in servicing your ship (so you get more credits basically). That bonus differs between clans as you need oil to upgrade the clans base, which you get by playing the game…..

It is worth checking out if interested in online navel battles…you can watch some of the battles on the YouTube link.. or watch it live with blackjack on FB…

Have fun… playing or watching…and don’t forget to sign up with these awesome guys at “THE MIMP REBELS “… they will love to have you aboard….