SO I DID NOT TEXT HIM ALL DAY WEDNESDAY; ME TRYING TO NOT SEEMS TOO EAGER BUT REMEMBERING OUR DEAL THAT I HAD TO TEXT HIM BEFORE HE TEXT ME; THAT HE WON’T INITIATE CONTACT. MY MIND WAS FULL OF THOUGHTS OF HIM I TOLD Paige WHATS GOING ON; AND I THINK I MENTION HIM TO ANYBODY THAT’S WANTS TO LISTEN . I EVEN CALL MY GIRLFRIEND WHO I KNOW WAS CONSTANTLY DATING GUYS ON LINE FOR YEARS, SO I THOUGHT SHE COULD GIVE ME A LITTLE ADVICE FROM HER EXPERIENCE. I KNOW I SHOULD TRY TO END THIS, BUT MY HEART HAS GOTTEN ALL TANGLED UP IN IT AND I DID NOT WANT TO GIVE HIM UP AS YET. I WAS FEELING WAY TOO GOOD, AND I WAS WALKING ON AIR AND MY STOMACH ALL I KNOTS JUST THINKING OF HIM.
So I woke Thursday morning and decided I could not wait another day to talk to him. He was all I dream of all night; so I wrote to him;
“Hey… I said. [My hand all trembling with excitement]… went to sleep thinking only of you…. You consume my dreams… wake up… and again… there you are… all I can think …] and to top it all… just the simple thought of you put this silly smile on my face… is this normal?… MISSING YOU MUCH!!!
An hour went by before he answered, I was excited to get that text, I smile so brightly as i read what he wrote….
“Well… all I can say is I love it! You are totally consuming my thoughts too! And yes my dreams of us have been mild to wild! I find myself drifting off thinking about how you will feel to kiss… What it might feel like to hold your hand… how beautiful your smile will be in person … so I’m right there with you pretty girl! It’s a great place to be and I’m glad we sharing the same experience!” “I hope you are having a great week Nita! I can’t wait to talk to you again. Smile beautiful you are totally on my mind!
I was taken aback by his feelings. I was quite pleased that he was reciprocating my emotions and that he really seems to like me …I did not want to continue too long with the conversation because I did not want him to think I had nothing better to do or give him the impression that was I was too eager…. Of course I was… but…
So I say to him. “You have such a great way with words. So poetic. You always know exactly how to make me smile. I’m having a good week and I hope everything is going good for you too. TTYL Allen; on my way to class; can’t wait to talk to you again too.”
“I’m smiling huge! You just made my day Wendy! Have a great day at school TTYL beautiful.”
I did not talk to him again for that day, I knew he have to work so I never bother him that night.
So Friday morning I woke up and sent him another text. He’s been on my mind constantly, I could not shake him for nothing, I told those girls at the work about him and told them about the deception I was playing, I even showed them his photos asking, how could I resist this gorgeous guy? and confess how much I liked him… they tease me all night and we had fun with my dilemma; they made me laugh so hard. And I promise them I was going to stop… soon… but right now I’m hooked and I just have to ease out slowly.
So I text him when I woke up, ‘hi Allen!!! Waking up from a most pleasant night spent with you… in my dreams… again. Well school is out for a couple of weeks, only work and it’s quite busy right now.
At work I found it so hard to stay focus and my mind keep going back to everything he say to me and sometime I kind of laugh out loud with my thoughts; he was my consuming my whole world and taking complete control of my mind. I was so profoundly happy. So I had to share with him what was happening to me.
“I want to share something I find quite amusing that happened to me yesterday.’ “ well while working my mind was drifting off to you and on one occasion I was with this customer and I thought of something you said and I burst out laughing [giggles]; she said to me,’ are you ok my dear,’ I told her I was and I just thought of something that tickles me. She then says, ‘it must be a good tickle for you to have that smile on your face.’ And I laugh again and reply, “Yes… Yes… Yes” and I thought, if she only knew… this is what you are doing to me. And I am enjoying it and enjoying you.
I also sent him a song by Peter Cetera; “I wanna take forever tonight” and I asked him if he knows this song. ‘One of my favorites’ I told him. Then of course I felt obliged to inform him on how and why I liked it. Oh man, I just don’t know when to stop lying.
So I said, ‘actually my aunt play it all the time and that’s how I got t know and love it.’
I did not hear from him all day until I was at work; I knew he was working so I was not worried but I kept my phone close to me so I could know when he text back. And then it came, and my heart did a flip-flop and my heart began to race; I was like a school girl with her first crush; I was wearing this silly smile… grin… And I was so delighted and happy. I couldn’t wait to read what he has to say, I could not contain myself or my composure. So I steal a little peek….
He started out with…” Ok… first of all… I am all smiles again; try so hard to not be obsessive with this app and stay off of it assuming we probably won’t chat much while you are busy…. When I get on and there is nothing I feel a little drained… and when is something I light up! So tonight I got in and I light up!!! This is the way you are having a profound effect on me. And like you baby… I really like it! Enjoying us comes very natural for me Nita. ”
And he continues, ‘ok so I am not familiar with the song but I find it and listen. You seem to be an old soul… and I mean that in a really good way. Perhaps you haven’t experienced all that life will offer yet but you go with the flow… like giving a song like that a chance…. And finding out you actually love it. That is maturity. As for your story… I don’t know what you do for work but I love the story and I am glad that I am really close in thoughts and that you are thinking about me… us… I am doing the same I promise.
“ I have had so many dreams about us doing things… last night we were in a plane about to land on a beach in the Bahamas… a deserted island I always wanted to check out… it looks so pretty… anyways you were really excited to get on the ground and get in the water with me.. It was really nice.
I am reading all what he is saying and totally involving myself and living the part; as far as I was concern right there and then; he was talking to me; I was totally evolve in character. I was taking very word he wrote as mine and I was receiving every feeling he was pouring out. And I loved it. I was feeling so emotional that I got a sensational rush all over my body.
He sent a photo of the ocean; he said, “The Ocean tonight… just a while ago”. [It had a beautiful sunset on the water. How did he know how to touch me so? I love the sunset and the ocean… it calms me.]
Then he sent a video of some aerobatics show; “thought I’d show you little aerobatics” he told me. I looked at it and just smile and saw how very adventurous he really is. And I’m like “wow!! He is so much fun. I like him… he is so excitable!!!…
And he says, ‘and here’s where I will take you one day I hope; and he sent three more photos of an island; I did not know where it was of. But I was all smiles with a heart full of joy and admiration, thinking he sure knows how to be a romantic…
” Ok now that I’ve blown your phone up I will leave you alone, I sure hope you have a great night Wendy, talk soon pretty girl.
So I sent him a quick text from my register between customers,” sneaking a peek, at work still.”
He said, ‘well don’t get in trouble silly.”
I smiled at his comments and keep on smiling… I took a break within the next two hours; and I went to talk to him. I told him, “I’m acting silly aren’t I? But I’m so anxious to talk to you and hear from you, that I can’t wait. Yeah… silly… I am on a short break… will you be up when I get off? I asked him. BTW, I’m a cashier at Walgreens. … I truly enjoyed the pictures and videos. You are so much fun’, I told him.” Well I better get back on the floor, TTYL My Allen.”
“GOD I love what we have!’ He said to me, ‘I’m like a kid! I sure hope you have a great night beautiful! I might be up later… Going to a Christmas party and then I’ll be home… and go to bed… not sure what time you get off. Nita, I want more of this if you do. I really like how we make each other feel.’
I hurriedly text him back telling him I should be home about 2am.
And I went back to work thinking about what he had said about wanting more and how he likes how we make each other feel; OMG!!! So do I. he is so awesome and he makes me feel incredible good; But how am I going to make this last, I am standing there hardly able to focus, hoping the time go fast that I can get home to be with him. That was all that matters to me right then. I couldn’t wait, the time couldn’t go fast enough, I was literally craving for him and I have this anxiety in the depth of my stomach just wanting to connect and feel him close. I was a mess, a complete mess.
So on my way home apx. 2:13 am I text and asked, ‘hey are you asleep? On my way home.
He replied almost instantly as if he was waiting for my text, ‘no beautiful I’m up. I’m sleepy but wanted to stay up so we could chat with you before bed.”
I quickly responded, very excitingly, ‘oh wonderful, just give me another 6 minutes. I’m almost there.
He said, ‘ok baby, take your time! I hope you had a good night at work.”
I couldn’t get in the house fast enough; I quickly changed and got in bed and on that phone. I say, ‘okay I’m all yours.’ … literally I was all his. GOD!! How I wanted him… In every way; he heightened all my senses, I was like ready to explode, and I don’t remember ever feeling this intense with anybody or for anybody before.
Then he said,” hey, I love the sound of that. I wish.’
I then answered to him telling me to take my time, ‘trying but I’m very excited to be with you. Keep on wishing your wish might come true. I told him.
Hey, I understand that feeling! He said, ‘how was day pretty girl? He asked. Oh man you are saying all the right stuff.”
It was a bit busy being Christmas and all,’ I told him. So how was yours, My Allen?
I’m sure! He stated. Mine was good baby! A little busy with some work stuff I’m doing in Boston, Other than that, pretty normal.”
So I decided to mention the pictures he had sent earlier, ‘you seems to have an adventurous day.’ I told him. ‘I actually like the air show; do you work on weekends? I finally asked him.
Well I’m going to be slowing down a little for the holiday now’, he inform me. Oh you like the aerobatics? He asked. Good! Maybe one day I will take you up and do some fun stuff like that once you are comfortable enough… and when you are ready I will teach you to fly if you want… I usually don’t… that’s why I stayed up late.
Learning to fly… wow! That would certainly be fun and exciting. Sure wish I could take him up on his offer but…
So I said, ‘sounds like fun.’ Usually don’t? I asked in reference to him working on weekends. ‘Means you work tomorrow.’
Perfect! He said. I would love to see that smile a ton. No work tomorrow… I might fly to Savannah to see a friend and have lunch and I have a Christmas party tomorrow night.
I would too, I told him.
‘I’m smiling Wakanita’, he said.
‘Ooh good for you’ I told him,[ him going to Savnnah;] I’m all smiles myself.’ I informed him.
God you are so damn cute,’ he complimented me. ‘Just the way you talk makes me happy”.
“Now you make me laugh.’ I informed him.
And I was laughing and giddy with happiness. Believe me when I say, I completely forget that I was pretending. I was so caught up in over conversation and him, that I was not acting at this moment, I was totally absorbing him and was being me; Wendy Wakanita.
Then he asked, do you like your job?”
Yes it’s easy’, I answered, ‘and it’s only for a time.’
“I have been totally daydreaming about you today… he told me. ‘You are totally controlling so much of me Nita… it’s a really nice feeling. And my dreams last night were very graphic and very sexual. I’m craving you.
There he goes again I thought, like reading my mind and sensing my emotions. It was like we were emotionally connected. He could feel and sense my every thought and desires. I did not want the sexual talk but somehow I welcome it because all my senses were heighten right now, and my desires for him was like a raging bull..
And so I told him, ‘do you know you echo my every thought?
‘Awwww!’ He gave out.
So was mine. I said to him of about my dreams too.
He said, ‘oh really.
Yeah,’ I said.
Well I’m glad we are together in our dreams! He stated. ‘That’s a nice feeling too.’
What does that mean,’ I asked.
I was really wanted to hear what he thinks about the whole thing, because I was a bit confused and not sure how to explain what was happening to me and my emotions.
Well, while I’m dreaming of making love to you and pleasing you… you are dreaming of us too … that’s a nice feeling. He explained.
I honestly told him, ‘I don’t know what my feeling mean.’
I didn’t, not really it couldn’t be love this quick; but.. my feelings was so intense and creating a havoc emotionally.
‘I know what mine means,’ he said. Its passion and desire…
I have never felt like this before’ I told him.
That usually leads to love,’ he continued, it’s a connection; that can be spoken but doesn’t have to be…it’s just mutually understood.’
Love?’ I uttered, ‘isn’t it too early for this? I asked of him.
Yes, in today’s society it’s too early.’ He informed me.
I think it’s your powerful words,’ I told him. You got me hooked! How can this be possible? I asked.
And in reality love can’t be defined…’ he continued to explained and clarified, ‘it’s an emotion… and it’s different for everyone. I am not saying you love me… I’m saying we are in a good place that could lead to more. I’m sorry if I confuse you pretty girl.’
Very logical definition I thought. I know he was very intellectual.
I just couldn’t believe that it was this easy to get so caught up emotionally just by texting someone.. and I was actually enjoying this new-found feeling I was experiencing.. with this most amazing man.
That I am,’ I told him. Confused I meant. ‘But I am loving It.’ … and I definitely was….
“Call it what you want… labels are for other people to understand. He was saying to me, ‘I just know I like where we are and I would like more…the rest is up to you as you know baby.
I don’t know if it was because he thought he was talking to a very young naïve girl; that he took the time to educate and enlighten her; but, I was definitely learning from him and was able to understand my emotions a little better from his words of wisdom. So I am new and naïve to this raging of desires and passion that has overcome me.
So I told him, ‘this feelings you give; it’s out of this world.
Then he did a tailspin and went opposite direction; “I promise I will not pursue you if you choose to stop communicating with me Nita. I promise I will respect your decisions… always… I just know what I would like.’
“I am so frightened… you know why? I asked. Then I told him. ‘I don’t want to stop…”[ meaning communicating.]
But all of a sudden I came back to reality and remembered that I could not continue with this much longer; I have to find a way out soon. And my emotions have already entangled enough and I was so convinced, he will never like me… the real me… I have to think about an exit. But I find I am digging my hole deeper and deeper trying to get some more of his time and to enjoy this exhilarating feelings some more.
But… I stated.
What excuse can I give for being afraid?
He was saying something, ‘I would like to please you… to make you feel better than ever…I want to tap into your desire and passion… And see what we can build… maybe it takes a bunch of time to get there… I will wait. I know when something is worth having it is never forced… that’s what makes it so special… you would die for it but you can’t buy it… it’s earned… I want that.’
Man… I was blown away when I read that; and I was so sorry I could not put a claim on him. This guy is so passionate and deep. And as usual words fail me’ I did not know how to respond to him.
So I just said, ‘GOD!!!! YOU ARE SO AWESOME.’… .
Then he asked me to tell him the ‘but’ part… ‘I’m sorry I interrupted you,’ He said.
I kind of forget my trail of thoughts; and I thought, he thinks I am a virgin, so I said. It scared me…. Sex. And you are so experienced.’
It wasn’t too far from the truth; because I would be very intimidated with him sexually; he talks with so much expertise.
“Ok…well you know that there is no reason to be scared, right? He said trying to console me. ‘I would always make sure you were 100% ready before I ever consider it; most girls rush in to it and regret just getting it over with.. That is not how we would handle anything.’
Ooooh… what a guy… so I asked him, you have that kind of patience?
If you truly care for someone you are compassionate right? He asked.’ So if I like you to be there… I will never take anything Wendy. You will give me when you are ready. I will earn that place… and that will make it perfect. If it doesn’t happen it wasn’t meant to be.’
Is this guy real; men like this don’t exist…?
So I told him,” I may talk like I know what I am saying but my actions say something else.’ You are too good to be true, ‘I can’t believe I accidentally found you”. I told him.
Then he said. For the record… my favorite dream is you asking me to make love to you…. You are naked on the beach… laying on a towel… it’s like sunset… we are alone on the island… the reason I like that dream is because you are asking. Then he responded to my finding him,’ it’s so weird how we collided,’
I like that dreams,’ I told him. “I would say, take me I’m all yours”
I’m a super visual person so my dreams are really vivid,’ he was telling me. ‘It was a really nice dream… In that one we didn’t make love… it was just about being ready I think.”
“Awwww!” he responded to me.
So I told him, ‘my dreams are a little wilder”…. Of course they are. My imagination runs wild with him.
He was continuing with his dream, ‘I laid on top of you naked and we were kissing and I start to work my way down… and that was the end of the dream… I woke up. And oh, I’ve had some crazy fun dreams too! But that one is my favorite one so far… just because of the value… you giving me you… that are the biggest value ever.
And that right there is the great fascination with Paige, she is a virgin and he likes that she is. So with her looks and her smile ; he is going to do everything to win her over. And he has the lyrics; he has me all swooning and his words are not even meant for me. {So funny; so funny and sad indeed}
Do you like the beach, I asked.
Ummmm, I don’t go much… he said,’ but the ocean is full of mystery and romance.
And I change subjects on him, and I asked him, ‘by the way, where is that you wanted to take me to?
For lunch or the deserted island? He inquired.
From the picture,’ I told him, ‘on the plane.’
‘Cedar key for lunch… or dinner…’ he informed me.
Where is that? I wanted to know.
If I picked you up in Orlando…we would be there in a half hour flight. He told me, ‘it’s on the gulf coast of Florida across from Ocala Kinda.’
So I told him, it would be after Christmas… super busy right now.’
And how I would love to do that; and how I wish to be Paige right now so I could accept his invitation and have a blast with him. God! How I wish to be liked, like that by a man like him. He is so romantic and full of sweet imagination. He is just the fantasy of my dreams. Ooooh maaan….
It would be whenever you are ready baby,’ he said lovingly,’ no rush’
Okay you sweet sweet man I replied.’ I am going to say it again; you are right out of my dreams.’
He laughed, ‘ha ha you are super sweet too! And Wendy….
Yeah,” I answered.
We go as friends… he was telling me, ‘and see what happens… no expectations… just two people enjoying some company and having fun! That’s it! If the chemistry isn’t there for you in person I will understand. Nothing forced ever.’
The more he talked the more I admire him and the more I was amazed by him and the more I was falling for him; man… I was sure in big trouble… how am going to give up a man like him… how am I going let him go….
WOW!!! I exclaimed.
You will drive us emotionally until and unless we have mutual connection that includes romance and anything else ok? He finished saying.
‘I’m kinda lost for words’. I told him. … I was for two reasons; I was not able to commit to anything; and I did not know how to respond to him.
Really? He said. I’m sorry.’
You are too good for me.’ I told him.
Then he said, ‘ok so I think you will like that flight… and that island is really cool. So I think we will have fun and good conversation and company.’
Sounds like a plan, I commented… I mean it in a good way, I meant it sounds like a good plan….but I think he misunderstood my meaning.
Because he said, ‘you are so silly…I am just being courteous… you have been honest and open with me and so I want to proceed at your pace and your terms! That’s all baby.’
I was a bit hurt that he misunderstood me; but I continued, ‘I like conversation… and I like you… a lot…You just amazed me every time,’ I told him.
Me too! He said, ‘and if you’ve ever flown in a small plane you know that it is amazing too… The view is really nice and you will be my co-pilot! So I will let you fly if you want… I will show you a few things and let you take the control if you want.’ ‘Wakanita I like you plenty too girl.”
So much for me to comment on and all I could come up with was, ‘can’t believe there is someone like you out there; and I am talking to him.’
I am such a lousy conversationalist; I never have the right words to say or I can never try to comment on what he is saying. My texting is lousy and yet I can type at least 40 words per minutes. But having trouble texting; makes no sense. …. But he doesn’t seem to notice or care.
I can’t believe I have made such an amazing connection. This is crazy good.’ He stated.
Isn’t it? I said,’ never been on tango before. First time and there you were.”
How often does life take two people and just melt them together… he was saying, ‘emotionally in a way that puts them in the same place and time… it’s like all of my feelings and senses are totally heightened…I feel like we are experiencing this together.
[This comment of his; is the truest and most practical fact of our encounter.]
Totally,’ I responded. ‘Fate is what it is.’
Whoa!!! He exclaimed. ‘I’ve had this app for a few months…and I was on it for five or six times, I think… but it was just silly fun… like a time killer. I never took it serious… I can honestly tell you that you were the first one I was so forward with.. So out there… I’d thought I’d be fun and crazy… was gonna go to bed and bam… you became real.
And he was really fun and crazy to me’ one of the reason I liked him and wanted to talk again.
So I told him, ‘the same for me, I was there for fun; not looking for anyone… and now I have you.’
Right! I get it… he answered, “and I thought I might as well be crazy and impulsive… and look what happened.’
I made a mistake in typing and said, ‘oops; just laughing at us.’
I was just being stupid and goofy, he was saying, ‘figured at least it was fun to talk to someone…’
I was doing the same exact thing,’ I told him.
And our paths crossed,’ he said.
Then your captivated blue eyes came up, and I had to send a message to you.’ I told him.
He laughed out, ‘ha-ha! I love it. And did you get a mouthful of wise ass crazy guy that night.’
And our path crossed and I do love it too.’ I informed him. ‘I thought you were so funny.’
“I am a confident guy and can be cocky but I’m more of a joker than anything. He said.
So bold and brazen,’ I told him.
Yes I can be very bold,’ he admitted.
I love it,’ I told him, ‘being bold… wish I could be.’
“I think some of it is because I have to exercise so much courtesy that it feels good to be silly and let go…. I’m never cocky in a rude way… I absolutely hate disrespect… so I never go there. He told me. As a professional everything is so calculated… it felt nice to be that guy that night.
So I told him; ‘I didn’t think you were rude; you should exercise it more, you are good at it… because you also funny. And I may be bashful but I do like boldness.’
Ha-ha! He laughed, thanks; Wakanita… I really like you. I am so tired and waited up just to connect… I needed to feel you. I’m so glad I did. We are a good team lover!
Okay I understand,’ I told him, we both need to get some sleep… yes we are [a good team]. So this is goodnight… can we do this again tomorrow… you think? I asked.
I would love to! He said, it’s always up to you beautiful.’ Working till 2am again? He asked.
Great,’ I said. ‘Well sleep tight… yeah [to working late again]
And don’t get in trouble at work checking your phone silly,’ he told me.
I laughed out loud, LOL, I sent to him.
Nita… can I asked you a personal question?
Shoot, I said to him.
he asks me a sexual question?
I burst out laughing so hard, ‘laughing… I told him. “I think I will”
He laughed at me, ‘ha ha I know you are messed up.’ He told me. And now I know you are!
I said, ‘you are always messing me up; I can’t help it.’
And that was the truth; I stayed turn out just thinking about him, and while talking to him I can actually feel him right there with me…. So I get all tingling; wet; twitching and pulsating. My whole being becomes so alive just knowing him and knowing that he is feeling me the same way. He set me on fire ; he ignite my deepest desires and rose my passion to a height I did not even know I could reach; never being in this place before; and it feels so, so good.
He went ahead and give a little description of what i should picture him doing to me..
“Ok well, will you picture me between your legs looking up at you as you cum… me taking you in… pleasuring you… Tasting you… taking every drop of your cum… drinking your ecstasy.”
Wow!’ he has me all shuddering with his erotic vision; I was so hot for him.
And he continues, ‘I will find all your little places… all the things that drive you wild and crazy… and maybe some new ones and exploit them… till you cum for me Nita.”
‘With you my heart races… my pulses pump hard and my kitty meow..I confess.
My kitty was begging to be touched and I did oblige her and with just one touch I exploded with such a force; that I totally surprise myself; it’s been ages since I had experience that; wow!!! With just his vision, I couldn’t believe it.
He laughed at my comment and said, ‘Hahaha!!! Super cute! I like the kitty part…
Don’t know why I find it so easy to be honest with him? But normally I am not that bold especially when it comes to sex; that’s always my secret. But with him, I feel so comfortable telling him almost anything.
Really? He gives out, ‘Nita!! [I think he was surprised at me doing that.}
Aha ha’ I said.
we played for a little more and i did enjoyed our romp… this was my first experience with doing this and it really excites me…
Now I’m going to bed with a huge smile! And Nita… I’m going to cum real hard thinking about you….’ He then told me.
Then he turn it up, and give me a vision so clear that I could actually visualize every scenario the sets for me .. And I was really happy and I was smiling and laughing and loving him. I was having fun and man… was I ecstastic..
Night night Allen’, we ended.
I sit there just smiling and feeling so pleased and satisfied; thinking how does he make me feel so good and warm inside? How does he let my whole being come so alive; I was feeling him like I could touch him; the desires he created is so intense; I cum so much I didn’t think I had any more in me but… I went back to our final conversation with all his erotic vision and I again could reach to a peak of ecstasy another three times. Most amazing thing….. During all this, I never even once think back to the fact that all his fantasies and vision was not intended or directed to me… I claimed them all and I own them as mine; I went to a blissful sleep and a most erotic dream of us.
TO BE CONTINUED…
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